Maganda ba?

Kadalasan, ito ang tinatanong kapag alam ng ibang tao na nanood ka ng sine. Nais nilang malaman kung maganda ang pinanuod mong palabas o hindi. Minsan pa nga, ito ang nagiging basehan kung papanoodin din nila ang isang pelikula. Ngunit, minsan ito'y isang kamalian. Hindi naman kasi dapat maging dahilan ang opinyon ng iba para mag desisyon ka sa mga bagay tungkol sa sarili. Sabi nga, ang taong nanininwala sa sabi sabi ay walang bait sa sarili. Oo nga minsan hindi naman sabi sabi lang ang paniniwala ng iba ngunit ito'y may pagka-personal din ang dahilan. Sa sine, halimbawa, ang aking napanood ay hindi ko masabi talaga na ito ay maganda o pangit ngunit ito naman ay aking talagang nagustuhan.

Sige, hanggang sa muli kong pagtatagalog. Nawa'y maging maganda ang iyong araw!!!

How my day went......

Monday - Super Sunny

Tuesday - Freaking F$$%$^ Stressful

Wednesday - Blurry / Groggy / Zombie - like (you know, like a scene from a Stephen King novel &
I'm one of the living dead)
(yeah, I'm a living-dead-career-woman-wifey-momma)
NICE TITLE, right?

Thursday - bad-news-day/i-shoud've-expect-the-worst-day

Friday - i had a PREMONITION that I'm going to BALI sometime this year, hehehe

((Saturday - probably experiments, sleep, tv, read, net kinda stuff and best of all, as Jason Mraz say sleep-all-day))

((Sunday - Palm Sunday, Lenten season signal, no meats, pls.))

Starting the week right ;)

With only around 3 hours sleep, surprisingly, I'm ok (meaning: not-feeling-zombie-like) and hyper, hehe, it must be the ................

Good Morning, everyone!!!


;)

Dear Friend

Dear Friend,

I'm not sure if you're okay now...You may still be hurting. The pain may not go away no matter what I say or do. Love, like life has something in store for each one of us. All we have to do is experience it, let go of the 'wants', the 'needs', the 'demands' coz in the end, we just have to leave it all up to God. Indeed, there are no veterans in heartbreaks. It's pretty bizarre how I want to tell you a lot of things now -- words of encouragement -- which, I may just need as well... But I know we can do it! Like a tree standing still after every storm, we just have to be strong, or at least try to be, right? ... Well, no matter what kind of storm you must go through, I'm always just here for you... and happy or not, with or without someone in your life, remember that you're a 'GeM', a special one and I feel so good having known such a rare person/friend. Take Care, always.... God Bless!


from ur dearest,

bespren


P.S. isang araw, magiging masaya din tayo, as in sobrang saya, promise ;)

Sunday

Sundays are always nice and jolly and easy and fun...

It's indulge day... but hmm, let's see, what actually happened...

Ok morning... time to relax... read the newspaper, then a book, then surf the net: FS, emails, etc., YM (chatted with setan merah, thanks for the downloads, setan ;)), watch tv, play with russ, clean the house, eat some chocolates (yum yum)... soundtrip, turnin the amplifier to the max, fin'lly i got to play Simon & Garfunkel (love love 'America', my current LSS) and my UltraelectromegneticJAM album (it's an Original Pilipino Music, a super-duper-nice collaboration of various local artists in doing a cover of the Eraserheads [which is a BIG band here in 1990's] hits into this album> i so love Alapaap).... with these nice & loud music on the background, i began cleaning....

afternoon... ok, clean the house, hmm, weight lifting >> lift the chairs, table, tv, lots of other stuff..., (hmm, im indulgin myself by lifting things, err this day is not turnin out the way i thought it would be... but heck, who's complaining? i just hope my back's still good tomorrow ;)) hehe, what else did i do, ok, experiments with russ (he loves experiments), then, more housechores.... sms'ed friends, re- the virtual mini-reunion-TARAfans (sorry for disturbin ur peaceful sunday friends, ;), manis, riki, joy, ray, san...), hmm, of course eat sumptuous lunch with the fam (dad, 2 bros., hub, russ, my beloved nanny cath)... more house chores: sweep, wipe, vacuum, etc., etc. (whoa, when will this end???, hehehe)... chatted awhile with salwa, cab, riki....

early eve... looong bath, after much needed several minutes' rest, dinnertime, then..........................................
............................. then finally chat with riki, red, summer, san, then w boy bwang, cab, hmmm that's it,

and,

now,

it's

already

MONDAY!!!!

hehehe

:D

214 by Rivermaya

Am I real?

Do the words I speak before you make you feel,
that the love I lay for you will see no ending?
Well if you look into my eyes then you should know,
that there is nothing here to doubt, nothing to fear,
and you can lay your questions down ‘cause if you’ll hold me
we can fade into the night and you’ll know

The world could die, and everything may lie,
Still you shant cry
‘Cause time may pass, but longer than it’ll last
I’ll be by your side

Take my hand,
and gently close your eyes so you could understand
that there’s no greater love tonight than what I’ve for you,
Well, if you feel the same way for me, than let go
We can journey to a garden no one knows.
Life is short my darling tell me that you love me
So we could fade into the night and you’ll know…

The world could die, and everything may lie,
Still you shant cry
‘Cause time may pass, and everything wont last
But I’ll be by your side,
Forever by your side,
So you wont cry

Alapaap by Eraserheads

May isang umaga na tayo’y magsasama
Haya at halina sa alapaap
O anong sarap

Hanggang sa dulo ng mundo
Hanggang maubos ang ubo
Hanggang gumulong ang luha
Hanggang mahulog ang tala

Masdan mo ang aking mata
Di mo ba nakikita
Ako ngayo’y lumilipad at nasa langit na
Gusto mo ba’ng sumama?

Hindi mo na kailangan ang magtago’t mahiya
Hindi mo na kailangan ang humanap ng iba

Kalimutan lang muna
Ang lahat ng problema
Huminga ka ng malalim at tayo’y lalarga na
Handa na ba’ng gumala?

Ang daming bawal sa mundo
Sinasakal nila tayo
Buksan ang puso at isipan
Paliparin ang kamalayan

Masdan mo ang aking mata
Di mo ba nakikita
Ako ngayo’y lumilipad at nasa alapaap na
Gusto mo ba’ng sumama?

Para sa akin by Sitti

Kung ika’y magiging akin
Di ka na muling luluha pa
Pangakong di ka lolokohin
Ng puso kong nagmamahal

Kung ako ay papalarin
Na ako’y iyong mahal na rin
Pangakong ikaw lang ang iibigin
Magpakailanman

Di kita pipilitin
Sundin mo pang iyong damdamin
Hayaan nalang tumibok ang puso mo
Para sa akin

Kung ako ay mamalasin
At mayron ka nang ibang mahal
Ngunit patuloy ang aking pagibig
Magpakailanman

Kung ako ay papalarin
Na ako’y iyong mahal na rin
Pangakong ikaw lang ang iibigin
Magpakailanman

Talaga Naman by MYMP

Talaga namang nakakabighani
Talaga namang nakakagulat
Nakapagtataka ba't ka nasa isip
Nakakapanghinayang sana'y maulit

Talaga namang nakakakabigo
Talaga namang nakakalungkot
Kung kelan pang malapit nang
Mahulog ang loob
Saka ka lumisan sa aking pagtulog

Panaginip nakakabaliw
Nakikita nga, di naman nagtatanaw
Talaga namang hanggang doon na lang
Ang pagibig na sana'y alay sayo
Talaga namang di na matutuloy


Talaga namang pinapangarap
Talaga namang gusto kang mayakap
Muling mahawakan ang iyong mga kamay
Kahit na alam ko ito ay di tunay

Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you trade
your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
a walk on part in the war
for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish
you were here.
We're just two lost souls
swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over
the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.

Terimah Kasih banyak to my everdearest friends

Sometime last month, I was feeling so low because of a plan that did not push through in my life. I normally do not ask others (even friends) openly for advice because I don't want to bother others. But feeling like I'm gonna drown in the depths of despair, I have finally decided to sms some friends from the faraway land / largest archipelago in the world. What I thought was a wrong thing to do (seek help) is, after all just what I needed, it felt absolutely right to seek these friends' words of wisdom. They did sms back with varying advices but all in all are oh so very helpful enough to make me feel alright. Just like magic, I became calm again. Indeed, just having them as part of my life is a blessing in itself.

Thanks Manis Akoi, Bro. Ray & Sis San San for being the sweetest, caring and wonderful human beings that you've been... I'd be 4ever grateful... You're all beautiful people.

xoxo

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, foool

You've got Mail

Opening mails is something I always look forward to (esp. FS mails ;))... There's something about unopened mails - electronic or otherwise that gives a sense of wonder, I believe such an effect is felt by any recipient. There is also such a potential in each mail, it could always be a pleasant surprise, a forwarded mail perhaps, a chain mail... there's a certain sense of anticipation and a bit of bliss knowing that someone remembered to send you something, whatever it is. It is these seemingly small things that delights me every now and then and makes my heart smile. ;)

Ups and Downs

In the past few days, weeks or months... I haven't been totally beaming with happiness. Funny how it is so easy or maybe even mechanical to let out a smile or laugh without actually meaning it 100%... But don't get me wrong, I wasn't totally fooling others and myself when someone asks, 'how are you?' and I respond 'I'm ok' because honestly, I think I am....... at that time or so I thought. But the real deal is that I say I'm ok because I want to be... I want to be okay, I want to be strong, I want to be happy... I wanted to be everything I was not, at that time and I guess I was successful... I even made myself believe that, for a time, I was indeed... ecstatic about everything that's going on in my life... The biggest drawback however is, when I suddenly realize that (pathetic as this sounds) I was living a life of deception, pretending I'm smiling when deep inside I'm kinda wounded. Well, reality bites. Believe me, it does and it does bite hard... I guess life is truly a mystery... no matter what stage in your life is... With all these things and feelings that I've gone through, the biggest lesson I learned is to be true to oneself and believe that it is okay not to be okay coz one day, yes one day, everything will be all right.

;)