Hallelujah!

After four days, Russ finally got better last night... My sleepless nights are over? Well, am just glad he's ok now... my prayers have been answered ;)

Pain pain go away

tossing, turning, can't sleep well last night because my back's aching againnnn...

good thing after an hour of suffering i realized i still have one tablet of the pain reliever my doctor prescribed 19 days ago...

the pain didn't immediately leave me though, another hour or so and voila! pain pain went away!

btw, speakin about 19 days ago... i finally claimed my x-ray and there's a reason for all this backpain... dextroscoliosis... ish! i hate it that i have it but i know it wont kill me... :P

anyways, goin back to the doctor in a few days and hopefully this time i actually will.

Virgo horoscope for today

This is a time to cement your ties to others, to make sure they are solid. Find the perfect home situation that will foster the expression of your creativity. It might be a good time to remodel your house as well as your life. Changes in your lifestyle will allow new opportunities to present themselves.

my snake horoscope for today

Contentment, emotional well-being, and harmony prevail in your personal relationships. At this time you relax and indulge in your pleasure-loving side. Unless other astrological indications override this influence, you are unlikely to be forceful and try to make things happen, but instead are inclined to flow along with people and situations, attracting what you need and letting the world come to you.

On Friendship and Love

Friends are forever…

That’s what we always say… Or was it a Hallmark card who said it? An advertising ploy perhaps… In my life, there are only a few special people I actually consider close friends and it is only lately that I realize that the thought of losing one of the few special friends I have is the most heartbreaking thing… For me, it is indeed true… friends are forever… but sometimes maybe they choose not to be… On my end, I continue to love… and cherish the memories of a friend found and lost and hopefully found again… and that hopefully… this time around, it’ll indeed be… forever..

Bliss.

LOVE. It is the most powerful thing in the world. It can make the strongest man weak. It can also bring the most abundant bliss… In my life, I always try to give love in every relationship I get into, whether it be thru friends, family, and even people I work with… When you give love unselfishly, it is the most rewarding feeling ever J It is unimaginable to lose someone you love and even losing the feeling itself… that, to me would be a tragedy L

Restless spirit

Sometimes I feel my mind is working overtime, I am about to sleep but it just wouldn’t stop… thinking, wondering, wandering, theorizing, churning out all these endless words in my head… more often than not, I just ignore them and I wake up the next day ready to face the world without those thoughts… Maybe there’s a worthy idea there somewhere but I was just too exhausted to process it :P but there was a time I bought a notebook and I put there these shrieking / mad / random thoughts… Frankly, it’s kinda disconcerting to look at it… One thing I realize about it though is that I should not take myself seriously at times… LOL

Lost, Found and other random thoughts

Where art thou?

USB cable, Billing Statements, Keys, Bills, Plane ticket, Flash drive, wallet, bracelet, Cellphone, an earring – these are just some of the personal things I thought I lost at one point or another. Some things really get lost never to return in my possession while others are found, like the 300 bucks I discovered in the jeans I wore last Saturday, mind you, those pair of jeans have been submerged in the washing machine yet, the money stayed in that pocket and actually dried in there and yaya (nanny) didn’t know of it (note to self: make sure to empty pocket/s before dumping the used jeans in the bin). That, actually isn’t a rare occurrence. I have left, I think a fifty or a hundred bill here or there, biggest left-over blunder of mine is a 500 Peso Bill, the only difference is that the previous yaya usually empty pockets before washing and she honestly returns these money I so carelessly left in my pieces of clothing. Shoot! How dumb can I get right? Well, I am most DUMB losing a wallet (twice, in a span of eight months), the first wallet was more loaded thus more painful to accept, I was kinda depressed for awhile then but aside from bein blue, the hassles of card replacements (credit cards, reward cards, social security card, atm, etc.) is a pain in itself as I relate quite a number of times to strangers how and when I committed this act of dumbness… The 2^nd loss of my wallet is easier to accept, no, not because I am already a veteran at it, but my wallet was very light that time, just a few hundred pesos, I think… and just 2 credit cards, 1 atm, 2 reward cards I only got depressed for a few hours… Btw, there was this favorite earring I lost when I attended a wedding, that was sad because I loved that earring soo much, I bought it from Bali’s Silver Craft center last year L the other earring is still in my possession though, I never threw it hoping someday, I will find the other piece…

On losing money, I’ve learned that money can indeed make me a bit happy, as I do have purchasing power when I have them but when I lose money, it comes back, sometimes double or triple its worth ;) A good friend of mine once said, ‘never say you don’t have money because you know you do, no matter how small it is, you should be glad you have it and do not hold on to your money so much, if you use it on things and people you love, it’ll come back to you, even ten-folds’. True enough, since I listened to her about 6 years ago, I have never hold on to money like it was God or something, it’s just a piece of paper that comes in and out of my life and once I lose it, I know I will earn it back J More importantly, there’s a sense of joy in buying even the simplest stuff for my family, friends, loved-ones ;)

LOST

this song sums up what i've been feelin for like, forever.... *sigh*

there's a saying that goes, "sometimes in life, you gotta lose yourself to find yourself" and though am not entirely thankful for bein lost lately... i know, somewhere, somehow, there's a reason for that... and someday, i just might find out...

LOST by Coldplay

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off

Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine was lost...
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine was lost...
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine was lost...
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine was lost...

*nice song*

Do you know what heartbroken feels like?

my heart's been ripped off of my chest
thrown at the street
ran over by a 10 wheeler truck
placed in a BLENDER
to become worthless
shreds of bits n pieces
worse, it's still beating

OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pardon the morbid thoughts,

that's
just
what
i feel
&
i think
i deserve
it
:x

Congratulations RAFA!!! Wimbeldon Men's Singles CHAMPION 2008!!!

I wasn't even able to write anything here about his Roland Garros match wherein Rafa stunned everyone, including No. 1 himself - Roger Federer in an unbelievable display of Clay Supremacy at 6-1 6-3 6-0...

and NOW, even more unbelievable, RAFA managed probably THE biggest upset over Roger Federer and --- on grass....

6-4, 6-4, 6-7 (5/7), 6-7 (8/10), 9-7 ***whew***

A Match of 4 hours and 48 minutes and it's all worth it... after about 2 1/2 hours of play, I thought Federer is stuck with the ominous '4' throughout the match but he did got over it... both players showcased world-class unbelievable absolutely amazing plays I wish I was there live, hahaha...

But seeing my fave player - Rafa - WIN is rewarding enough ;)

Federer did well too but Rafa was persistent, diligent and never backed down... twas an endurance of mental and physical stamina, i think and in tennis, as always, may the best man win, and win he did...

from Rafa:

"It's impossible to explain what I felt when I won. I'm just very happy to win this title. I never thought I could win but to do so is a dream," said Nadal who had lost the last two finals to Federer.

"I had match points but Roger is very tough. I want to congratulate Roger because he is great for tennis, win or lose.

"He's still the number one, he's still the best. He is a five-time champion and I have just the one title here."


from Roger:

"I tried everything," he said. "Rafa is a deserving champion -- he just played fantastic.

"It is a pity I didn't win but I will be back next year."

One of the greatest match ever!!! Twas an upsetting day though for Roger but I think this isn't the last we see of these 2 best players fighting it out in a championship match... more to come...


CONGRATS again RAFA!!!